Sunday, September 14, 2008

Remembering a Life

Daniel Cole. A name that will forever be etched in my memory and on my heart. Sweet, precious, baby boy.

Today marks the 4 year anniversary of Daniel's home-going to Heaven. It's hard to believe that so much time has already gone by since he went from my womb into the arms of Jesus. But, I look at the date, and four years have indeed gone by since I last saw our sweet little baby. In 4 years much has stayed the same and just as much has changed. I still grieve the loss of my babies, yet now I know the joy of raising one of my children. I wonder what my Heaven babies would have looked like as they grew, and through seeing Johnathan grow I have at least an idea of what they would have looked like too. So, today brings a new kind of sadness to me. The sadness of knowing what I missed. Things like seeing a bright smile just because I walked into the room, the closeness of nursing my baby back to sleep, even the changing of dirty diapers just so I can sing the poopy diaper song. So many things.

Today also brings a certain type of joy. Joy knowing that I won't have to worry about wondering whether or not Daniel will accept the truth of Jesus...he already knows Him better than I do! Joy in the realization that Daniel is in THE place of no tears, pain or hurt. All Daniel knows is love, and he is already worshiping the Creator in person. So, while being sad for me and my "loss", I am happy for the gain that is Daniel's...a life lived in complete peace with our Lord and Savior.

Happy Heaven Birthday Daniel. Mommy and Daddy love you. Have fun playing in the fields of Heaven, and know that someday we'll join you and celebrate your precious life in person!

6 comments:

Gail said...

Dear Gracie- your words are so sweet and endearing, and couldn't have come from any other person than that of a true mother. I will think of you today.

Love Always,

Gail (Auntie Fay)

Pine Pod Farm said...

Hugs to you sweetie, it's been that long since my sister-in-law miscarried Elizabeth but she would have had turner syndrome, now she has a sweet 3 year old girl and a son on the way!

Dad said...

Hi Grace,

The Lord has given you a tender and beautiful heart for your children. What a blessing to have you as their ever thoughtful, ever caring and ever loving mother.

And how blessed am I to be your dad and the grandpa of these precious gifts of God.

I love you, Grace!

Dad

Dad said...

Hi Grace,

The Lord has given you a tender and beautiful heart for your children. What a blessing to have you as their ever thoughtful, ever caring and ever loving mother.

And how blessed am I to be your dad and the grandpa of these precious gifts of God.

I love you, Grace!

Dad

Mom said...

Sweet Grace,

We thank God for the 4 grandchildren we have with Jesus. They will forever be in our hearts and impact our lives.

Your love and remembrance of them touches our hearts!

Remembering with you,

Mom

Precious Moments said...

Your blog made me cry...in a sweet way, thanks for sharing...