Remembering a Life

Daniel Cole. A name that will forever be etched in my memory and on my heart. Sweet, precious, baby boy.

Today marks the 4 year anniversary of Daniel's home-going to Heaven. It's hard to believe that so much time has already gone by since he went from my womb into the arms of Jesus. But, I look at the date, and four years have indeed gone by since I last saw our sweet little baby. In 4 years much has stayed the same and just as much has changed. I still grieve the loss of my babies, yet now I know the joy of raising one of my children. I wonder what my Heaven babies would have looked like as they grew, and through seeing Johnathan grow I have at least an idea of what they would have looked like too. So, today brings a new kind of sadness to me. The sadness of knowing what I missed. Things like seeing a bright smile just because I walked into the room, the closeness of nursing my baby back to sleep, even the changing of dirty diapers just so I can sing the poopy diaper song. So many things.

Today also brings a certain type of joy. Joy knowing that I won't have to worry about wondering whether or not Daniel will accept the truth of Jesus...he already knows Him better than I do! Joy in the realization that Daniel is in THE place of no tears, pain or hurt. All Daniel knows is love, and he is already worshiping the Creator in person. So, while being sad for me and my "loss", I am happy for the gain that is Daniel's...a life lived in complete peace with our Lord and Savior.

Happy Heaven Birthday Daniel. Mommy and Daddy love you. Have fun playing in the fields of Heaven, and know that someday we'll join you and celebrate your precious life in person!