Friday, February 11, 2011

Feeling Defeated

Do you ever have moments where you just feel defeated? Moments where you feel some sort of oppression and feel totally helpless to change things? I have been feeling like that a bit lately. And, I am pretty sure I know the cause...and I am pretty sure I won't feel this way for long, but right now, I am just plain worn out and feel like I'm running on empty.

Eli is sick and has been for going on 3 weeks straight...and just a few days before that he was just getting over being sick for about 2 it's been almost 5 weeks of him being under the weather. Johnathan has been sick off and on for the last month and a half too...and just now has come down with another double ear infection...just got over one a few weeks ago...and I am completely over them being put it frankly...I'm sick of it! ;)

Luckily when my little dudes aren't feeling 100% they are still relatively happy & that's a good thing. Aaron always says that if they are "appropriate" then that's a good sign...they aren't really that sick...but still, I want them to be well...and to stay that way for a good long time! None of us get much sleep when one or more of our little hive is sick...and after a while that just wears on you. I am ready for some good sleep again, although, in the mornings after my cup o' joe I do feel a nice little perk, so that's good!

Anyways, I am just ready for my two precious ones to get better. I feel like we're the only ones that have sick kids what seems like all the time. Are we??? Probably not, but still, it makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong to have my little dudes sick so frequently. I know this is the time of year when coughs and colds abound...and all that goes with I am very much looking forward to spring and hopefully renewed wellness for our little family.

Wellness, come soon!!!


Gail said...

Gracie, I'm so sorry you are feeling down, tired and overwhelmed by all the sickness. I can understand that must be very taxing on anyone's emotions, confidence as a mother and overall sanity! I'll be praying for you and the boys and just remember, whatever happens in life, it's just one more opportunity to trust the Lord. ;) He's watching over your little dudes...and you.

Love you much,

calebtnelson said...

Hey Grace!
Hope everyone in your house is feeling better soon. I know just how you feel. My daughter, Leia has been sick off and on since Christmas. It seems like just when she gets better she is hit with something else. It is so hard to see our little ones not feeling well. I will be praying for your little guys, and for strength, patience and endurance for you. :) Take care and God bless! ~Renee

KellyW said...

Oh sweetie, I TOTALLY get the defeated feeling. Granted, Ryan's the well one. I am the sick one. IT's been over 6 months since I've slept a full night and it's wearing on me big time. The benadryl is helping me, but I get about 4-5 broken hours each night. I haven't slept a full night since August. I am right there with you and I hope your boys get well and STAY well. It's no fun having sick ones or being the sick mommy.